Gym creeping.

I think the gym is going to kill me. I have such a love-hate relationship with it. I feel so great while I’m there, but I always end up pushing too hard and then my energy is shot for the rest of the day.

The good thing is that there’s always something there good for a LOL. Today it was the super-paranoid bug-eyed guy I went to school for 12 years with. I watched him on the elliptical from my treadmill in the back, and noted that every 30 seconds he’d twitch his head around and look over his shoulder making this face: “O_o”.

Because I was watching him like a creep? Nope, he wasn’t looking at me. Homeboy’s been doing that shit for 12 years. I don’t know who he’s expecting to jump out at him in Planet Fitness, but if he’s that nervous I sure as fuck don’t want to run into whoever it is.

I have about 15 chapters of this hopefully-a-book outlined so far. I’m sort of scared to say that I’m pleased so far, but I am. It’s got all the ingredients I need for fun: some drama, some dark humor, some light humor, ghosts that look like Joseph Gordon-Levitt. Well. One ghost that looks like Joseph Gordon-Levitt. Unfortunately, this character is sort of a dick-bag, but he’s pretty. I can’t even hate on that.

But now I’ve gotten to the hard part where I had everything super clear in my mind all written out. Now I’m onto the fuzzy part where I sorta-kinda know what I want to happen, but have no clue what order or what progression. I can’t. #no1curr I’m sure, but it’s pissing me off none the less! ]:

I keep getting all these invitations for job interviews for freelancing projects and it’s weirding me out. I feel like it shouldn’t be so easy and it’s playing on my suspicions. They all check out too, weirdly enough. My insecurities might be talking but I didn’t think I was that great to have employers actively seek me out like that. #conspiracy

It seems like everything in my life flip-flopped, at least for the time being. Even in my stupid dreams, which for the past week have all taken place in the DEAD of night with absolutely no lights outside or inside. Last night’s was in broad-ass wintery daylight and was so bright I almost went fucking snow-blind. Maybe tonight my subconscious and I can settle on some mid-afternoon springtime OUTSIDE somewhere.